I was drowning more to my freelance work before i leave and beating myself up for havent do any progress to my accessories business. Even when i was in the airport ready to check in, my freelance client still emailing me about work and asked if i still have time to do it. I really thank God for my client.
It’ been 3 years that i havent been to the states to visit my family. The journey was like forever but it pay off after seeing my niece and nephew. And boy they’ve grown a lot. The thing that i’m excited to see (and experience beside the weather) is My design. My best friend has a family business making balloons and they export it to USA and target is heir client. We’ve done some design on ballons for target but i’m excited to see this one. Well, if i can see all of them, it would be great.
Their product is under the brand spritz. But you need to look the one which written made in Indonesia because this brand has a lot of party stuff including balloons too which are made in china. So make sure you choose the right one. And we’re celebrating my dad’s birthday, i just grab the last packet.
Living here in US, is okay compare in Indonesia. Well, it’s a very different system and culture. I love the weather, especially the changing season, spring or autumn, because it’s not too cold or hot and you can see the nature gives their best colors.
The foods are great too. I came with a mission, to gain some weight and having a brother in law who is a good cook, really helps. We dont need to go to a restaurant for a steak, coz he can make them. I think i gain like 4 kgs already in 1 week.
After all the fun and relax things on week 1, going in week 2, i need to work on something. Not doing anyhing is good for a while, but i’m so bored and i dont have friends here that i can hang out with. So, back onthinking about Handmsde heirlooms which i’ve been puting at rest for a while. Went to the book store and bought a magazine about jewelry making. I might stop at the library since my sister is on her day off.
I’ll enjoy the good weather and comfortable things here before going back.. oh i think i shouldnt say it out loud or else it will come sooner for me to go home than what i expect.
Ok, unto handmade heirloom. Have a nice weekend people!
Experience one? Or having them right now? I read lots of articles that said, don’t let the burnout get you. Or something like that. Sometimes it’s inevitable. You work and work until you don’t have any energy left or you can’t think and start to be glued to your bed and TV.
Admit it. We’re not robots. After all, robots DO have a break. They’ll run out battery some how (i’m imagining Baymax).
I think I had burnout not long ago. In fact just a couple of weeks ago now when i’m counting back. I accepting work for my freelance but I will not start it until ‘i’m in the mood’ of doing it. My client, who is really really patient and I’m so grateful for him, has been asking me about this logo that I have to work on. So, finally I have to get up and unglued myself from my bed and TV/watching TV series.
Being in creative fields, where everyone think they can design is hard. And being a graphic designer, sometimes, I doubt myself. I’ve been doubting myself since I was in Uni. I still remember that I was stuck doing this one project that I cried. I called my friend and cried on the bathroom floor (seriously, it happened. It’s not in reality show though) and said, ‘I can’t do this anymore.’ For me, it’s beyond stress. Everyone thinks that we, designers, will always have tricks in our sleeves to finished one design and next to another. If we run out of ideas, I’m sensing that they will not see us as creative. It’s stressing myself out.
Last few weeks, I’ve been dealing with it again. glued to the bed, watching TV series and not wanting to do anything. I started to doubt myself with my new business Handmade Heirloom and then my freelance work, Lady Jaws Design. And start asking myself, ‘Do I meant to do any of these?’ Everything just crumbled into one. Lots of questions and just wondering. At the end, my client keep asking about the logo and yes I finished it today. 3 days after he asked for it though. And you know what? I never feel better. I’m just proud of myself (excuse me). I’m pleased with 3 drafts that I showed him. I feel creative and I feel that I accomplished something.
I remember when I had an internship, the senior designer, asked me to do this logo for a nursery home. When I worked on it, I told myself, I want to do this for the rest of my life. I feel happy and I can just stuck in front of the computer, tweaking, thinking, making things. Today that feeling came again. Well, not exactly the ‘I want to do this for the rest of my life’ thing, but I feel happy and motivated. I gave myself a pat on the back for finishing that logo and for being and feeling creative.
I’m happy that I had that burnout. Otherwise, maybe I will not went out from my comfort zone in term of design. Hopefully, I can just try new things and bring more clients hehe.. wishful thinking.
Who wants to grow up? That’s what I’ve been thinking lately with everything that happened lately. I wear so many hats lately, the very last one, i almost become an exterminator but then i thought, no i can’t do that. growing up means you have more responsibilities, things to be taking care of. When you think that being single is nice, that you have lots of time to do more things, think again. Sometimes, single people can be busy too. I do think that people, in any way, maybe they don’t really realize it that take singles for granted. Just because they don’t have husband or kids to take care of, doesn’t mean that they don’t have parents/parent to take care of and other things.
Having 2 business, I am so grateful. I can keep them low and slow. And having a full time job that is flexible, nice boss and soon will be nearer to my house, it’s everything that I can wish for. Although sometimes I’m thinking if i am able to find another job. Being slow is good in this fast changing world. I can tell you this, when you have everything going on, sometimes you just out of breath. Sometimes, breathing is.. just.. tiring as well because of all the things you need to think. Maybe you’re not tired physically, but then mentally, you are.
Sometimes you really just need to cut everything off and say “No”. My friend always says that i only can say No to him and i will say yes to everyone. Since he said that longgg time ago, i started to learn to say no to people. I really didn’t think that i said yes to people. Overwhelm? yes! the funny thing about human, or maybe it’s just me, it’s that, i can’t just sit down and relax sometimes. I need to do something. But when i have lots of things on my plate, i’ll overwhelm. Yet lately, i do really feel good when i’m relaxing. I don’t feel like i have to work every time and ‘fried’ my brain. Eventually, my body also force me to slow down. I’m going to bed earlier than usual. I feel sleepy around 11.30 although sometimes i still stay awake until 1-1.30.
So yes, when you feel overwhelm, STOP and DO NOTHING. it’s not a sin nor a crime to stop and not doing anything. Give you body and brain to recharge and relax. Eat good food, hang out and sleep, Yes, i thought i wont need it, but at this time around, i feel sleepy at some odd hours. Trust me, it feel like you’re chasing a wind when you try to follow every updates. The other thing is, i try to meditate the other day. It helps to really relax surprisingly. There is an app for that. i’ve tried headspace. It’s free for 10 level. because i’m stingy, i don’t really follow it through. i might look for other app probably.
Anyway, thank you to stop and reading this nonsense and narcissism blog. You are free to do nothing after reading. Off you go :)
I actually copy the title of this blog from my god brother’s BBM status. Somehow it just resonate with this post. I apologize if I’m being judgmental in this post though.
Last 2 months, my childhood friends from church who is a couple, ask me to hang out. They just got a new baby, and the wife said she was bored at home. So, we agree to have dinner together. I was hoping to just catch up, talking about life or work or whatever. But to my surprise, it ended up, the husband explaining to me about insurance because he’s an insurance agent not. I asked him, why he quit his previous job. He said, the hours are crazy. If they’re having a sale (he work in a local furniture company, a big one), he would come home around 1-1.30 AM and go in later that day as usual office hours. And they have a son, now a daughter and the wife wants him to spend time with her too. So, i thought.. yes, it’s a crazy hours. Now, he said he has flexible hours for his wife and kids because he’s an insurance agent. Ok, fair enough. Wives and kids, definitely need attention from the husband and their father. For your info, I said no to him for his insurance program.
Today, i just changed my photo profile on my BBM and the husband bbm me again. First, talking about my photo profile, then i talked about his son because i heard he was sick. Then, the topic came up again. This time, he asked me to join to be an insurance agent. He said that, it will suitable because i like to travel. If i become an agent, after 4 years, my salary will be around 168 millions Rupiah and this year, they will travel to London. I’m sorry but to me, that sounds too shallow. I don’t live and work hard so that i could travel. I live and work hard, so that i can fulfill my dreams, have financial freedom and eventually travel. Probably, one day, i will be proud that i could travel to London, but now, i’d like to travel and explore my own country.
We need money, we all know it. To live, to pay for things, to pay for mortgage, for our kids’ school, etc. And yes, we want to be rich or rather have that financial freedom. Jobs are hard these days and making money is harder than during my parents’ days. It is the fact. Things that bugging me is, why do you have to work for things that you don’t really love just because it pays a lot of sum of money? So what? so you can change your car, buy new gadgets and all? My friend said, at first he didn’t like it, but after he do it, he like it. So, he didn’t like it at first? Then it develop to be, he likes helping people, he’s sensitive about it. Huh? I don’t get it.
I guess, sometimes we work in a field that we probably didn’t like to do, because of the situation and that we need money. In some circumstances, it’s okay. We need to work, especially when we have obligations to fulfill. But if you have a choice, do you rather to work in a field that you have interested in or have passion about it, or you study for it and so you like it and build your way up or you work not in the field that you don’t like, but it pay a big sum of money?
There are people luckier than you and me who maybe don’t have to work hard to get what they want and feels like they are richer every second. But don’t forget that there are people envy of what you have and what you’re doing now. I believe that God gives us talents. Maybe it’s public speaking, maybe it’s administration things, designing, organizing things, etc that are all talents. Whatever it is, do what you love and love what you do. Maybe you don’t get 168 millions a month from whatever that you do. Maybe you can’t go to London this year, because it’s amazingly expensive. But isn’t it more satisfying that you do something you love, although it cost you sweat, tears and blood (ok, a bit exaggerate) and money (if you’re having a small business) and people give their appreciation for you because of your skills, determination, and passion?
I read Diane Von Furstenberg’s book. I just picked it up one time at the book store and just want to read it. I always curious about how people succeed. She’s a princess you know but she invented a dress that is timeless. And when i read it, i feels that, it’s easy for her to pen everything down. As a princess, she got all the connection she wants. All the upper lever, rich people kind of connection. She collaborate with other people, etc. Did everything that she’s done successful? No. Has she doubt/insecure about herself? Yes. Then one day, she got the idea and turn out to be an invention in the fashion industry and look at her now. She’s a legend. She even didn’t call herself a fashion designer until later in life because she has doubt. At first she’s clueless, but she knows the woman she wanted to be. And i really admire her because of her hard work. She’s not just a laid back princess, sit down and do nothing. She work hard, although she’s a single mother with 2 kids. She keeps working and believing herself. Although she experience a setback, she come back with full force and look at her company now. I have to admit that I don’t know DVF brand in the early 2000. But now, we have her store in Indonesia.
The point is, I rather working hard from what i love doing although it does not pay a fortune, but people appreciate it and it satisfying my soul.
So, what are you going to do? Doing what you’re passionate about although it’s not bring you a lot of money or just do jobs as long as it brings you a lot of money?
You probably sick of me saying this, but having your own project is really really hard. I don’t know how people do it, but it is true that it NEEDS a lot of hard work. I’m thankful that i can clear my leave this month, so i will come to work after the New Year. I thought that i can have a rest and think about Handmade Heirloom. WRONG!
I have 2 project for my freelance work, which i’m trying to finish the last one tonight. And on top of that, i need to plan for HH. Something that i never really think about. After reading so many articles, i think i need to somewhat make A plan.
But tonight it feel that all my work will go down. I have 3 jobs. I thought HH can be my additional project when my freelance work is slowing down. But it’s not. I understand why God is not answering my prayers, because He knows i’ll go nuts. With my dad to take care of which sometimes i have to be his PA, chores, 3 jobs, and church, i get A LOT of things on my plate. And yes, sometimes it is tiring and i can’t really focus at 1 task at a time. It always been and always have multitasking. Like now. I’m trying to write my blog, but i’m checking my email, reading an article and, trying to finish my freelance project, and about to listen to the music. Today, with all the hustle bustle that I have, I realize that I have too much. While i said to my friend long time ago that he worked too hard, i don’t realize that I am too. But, I have an itchy hands and my brain can’t stop to think sometimes. What can I do. That’s why, i sleep late. I read, i play, i watch tv series/movie and then i sleep. 24 hours isn’t enough for me and with poor time management… go figure. It is a blessing in disguise.
It’s been through my mind today, that what will happen when i can’t do HH anymore. If i’m stuck. If i don’t have any ideas. If i don’t commit to post something on my fb, my instagram or in my tumblr? Every time i saw the numbers on my instagram follower lower than the day before, i got sad.. And it’s my fault that i don’t want all people to know about HH, because some of them are doing the same thing. I have try to push myself beyond that and ignore the feeling, but i just cant.. with the shoot, the styling, the photo editing, the writing.. it is a lot of work need to be done.
I finished reading Diane Von Furstenberg’s biography, how she started her business and how she become the woman she wanted to be. I watch her TV show to look for her brand ambassador. I know what woman i wanted to be.. but i’m clueless.
On top of it all, i thank God that my friends believe in me and started to buy my necklaces.
With the year 2014 come to an end, I really thank God for everything that has happened in my life. I’m sorry for the tragedy that happened right now that is too close to home. I hope they can get a clue and find the Air Asia plane. And really excited of what will happen in the year 2015. God bless and guide us all!
Wait.. not that kind of commitment that you think about. You know i have my online shop (@handmadeheirloom on instagram, handmadeheirloom.tumblr.com and on facebook.com/handmadeheirloom). And i guess you’ve been hearing my whining about how hard it is to sell something online. Or maybe i put it wrongly, i don’t know. I’m still figuring that out. And it seems that people just like the photos that i shot for my products. Maybe.
Anyway, back to the topic. Commitment. I’ve been reading articles about marketing, content marketing, entrepreneur, small business, you name it. And I realize that, having a poor time management and 2 side business are sooooooooo HARD. Last week, i haven’t really got a project for my freelance job, it’s been slow due to the holiday i guess, and I kinda procrastinate my Handmade Heirloom’s project due to, well.. honestly no one has buy them yet (my emotion has been like a roller coaster with Handmade Heirloom). I take people’s opinion after they saw the facebook page and I really need to make more stuff apparently. That’s that. The thing that is so hard is keep showing up. I need to commit with that. The hardest thing is, i need to take time to read A LOT so that i know what i can post on my blog, on facebook or on my instagram. But if I read A LOT and not doing anything.. then.. it’s a waste of time too. get what i mean? In order to take action, you need sources. But when you put so much time to do your research and read your sources and not doing anything, it’s well.. nothing.
In one of the article, it says i need to plan. So, i think i need to do that. I need to keep working and showing up, whether people buy it or not. I’m praying that eventually people will.
I need to think commitment to my business, like commitment to my game(s). Yes, I like playing games to ease the mind for a while. I do enjoy what i do, to think about it. But the clueless-ness and the doubt and the fear that sometimes hinder me to do things.
So commitment, it’s what i’m trying to do. Wish me luck…
Every now and then, I need to get away to travel. A meeting with friends who was about to assured me to put the money into insurance for saving, said that i need to save. I know, but i need to travel too. I’d go nuts if I don’t. Nature has its own way to calm me down. It’s not that I don’t like to travel to another city, i’d love to explore, but when things get too hectic, i need somewhere quiet and peaceful to just put my act together sort of thing.
So, when my cousin cancelled our trip to Bali, I go the opposite direction and went to Batam. I know there’s nothing in Batam, well just my friend and his family. I know i need to stay in a resort to go calm down, but i tried to go with the flow this time. My friend invited me to stay in his house instead. He has a 1 year old baby boy. So i’m sure that i’m gonna play with him. Kids for me, yes, they can be irritating sometimes and all but they can give you happiness too. The thing that I like when i first come and stay in the house is, the boy always looking for me. Such a nice feeling. I got him a toy, which is a car which he can learn words and shapes. And to my surprise, his mom (my friend’s wife), took out the exact same thing from another room. I was so disappointed but the kid is happy. and he got 2 cars now.. so not a problem!
Anyway, although i’m planning to rest, eventually, we went out everyday haha.. I think my friend is also excited to show me around and they were a tourist themselves. In some places we went, they never really been there, so they discovered new places also. So funny.
That is Batam from the plane. We were at landing position. As you can see, they still have a lot of empty land ready to be develop. I can say that it is a developing island. It’s not that crowded and a lot of residence being build.
The next day, we went to this temple. My friend is a Buddhist, so he showed me the biggest Kwan Im Goddess statue in Batam which is in the Indonesian museum of record for being one. I’m exploring the temple while my friend and his wife were praying or just playing with their son.
From this temple, you can see Singapore and it’s really not that far apparently.
The temple has its own resort and spa villa too. So people can stay there. It was empty when we were there, so we just walk along the deck, make 1 round and then went out.
The next day, we went to this famous Barelang bridge. When i google for places to go in Batam, this bridge always come up. And every blog that I read about Batam has this bridge for a place to visit. So, I asked my friend to take me there. It’s a very nice bridge for a small island. This bridge connects the islands from Batam to other islands. Barelang is stand for Batam, Rempang island and Galang island. It has 7 bridges in total.
When the bridge was open for the first time, a lot of people stop to take picture. A lot of food seller also stop and make the bridge dirty. But now, they can’t do it anymore, you can stop the car but not very long and selling thing is prohibited on the bridge. Young people will take the opportunity of the bridge as a place to date, others for fishing.
After that we head for lunch for seafood. We went to this place call Barelang seafood. It’s a big restaurant but feel so empty. The food was ok. My friend ordered a sea snail called ‘gong gong’ and would like me to try it. You need a toothpick to pull it out. It’s kinda hard at first, but once it got out, dip it in a sauce, then you just ate it and put away the some kind of tail.
It’s the common food in Batam. So I tried. And apparently I’m allergic to it. When my friend’s wife asked if i can eat anything, i said yes. It never occur to me that we’re going to eat a snail.. I don’t even eat a certain clam. And because my family don’t eat clam, i always forget to say that ‘i don’t eat clam’ whenever people asked if i have allergy towards some food. But it’s not just me.
At night, we picked up my friend’s wife’s sister and a friend of ours at the Ferry station. It’s a full house that night.
The next morning, all of us who ate the sea snail got upset stomach (for me it’s upset stomach and itchiness). Fortunately, it’s not that bad. It’s a funny experience though. Oh, I just had 2 by the way. I can’t imagine if i ate more than that and I forgot to bring the medicine for upset stomach. But everything is under control.
On Saturday, after we sent our friend to the airport to fly off to Jakarta, we went to play go-kart! My friend just happen to know this place and his boy was so eager to play. Luckily, they have a 2 seat car. When it was our turn, i’m picking up what i thought the fast car. But then my car was not fast enough. It was fun though! A lot of Singaporean tourists were there too.
In that area, there’s a miniatures of indonesian traditional houses. We really has a lot of traditional houses from each province.
With that, we finished one more day.
It really is a nice time to catch up with old friend and talk about stuff. My friend and his wife was saying that they were kinda lonely because they don’t have friends at the same age as they are there. So they were happy to accept guests in their house.
My friend and his wife are also creative person although they have IT background, but i guess sometimes art is in some people soul. When i went to their second floor of their house, my friend showed me 2 furniture that he made from wooden block, to be a coffee table and he made a seat made out of tyre and cushion. I encourage them to do those sort of things, recycling things into furniture. probably it would be a business, who knows.
Sadly, every good time has come to an end and i need to go back to reality.
After my holiday (which i will post after i can get my laptop to work like it used to be), i had done a lot of thinking. Along this Handmade Heirloom process, i’m excited yet i have full of doubt. I doubt that people will not like what i do, I doubt what other people will think, you can guess every fear that you have when you’re starting a business, i have them all. Guess what? people can sense that. Well, that’s what i think and what i feel though. I doubt, so that people have doubt on me.
I got likes on my facebook page and my instagram but no one actually buy it. I’m no expert on marketing either and still learning through so many articles that i have to read, so, it is a trial and error process but not making any sell since 2 months ago launching this product is really a headache and a heartache blend into one. it’s always come to a why. why not this and that.
Today i received an email from a Digital Media Director for a new Fashion Shopping App, asking me to join their app. She said she love my instagram photos (thank you very muccchhh) and want a feedback from the fashion savvy. I am burst to laugh when i read that sentence. really, i’m no fashion savvy. But i’m flattered. although they asked me to join the app to purchase things from them boooo…
I know that when i keep trying, it will eventually pays off. i just don’t know when.. or probably when i’m nearly broke where i keep creating but no one buys :P.
But yeah, don’t let people know about your doubt, they can smell it. it’s hard but just try okay?
Upon building Handmade Heirloom as a brand, I realize that I have learned new skills and still need to work on that. Building a brand is hard, especially when you don’t have that business-y kinda background. I may see people effortlessly building their brand, but maybe they first struggled like me. I’m stress mentally and sometimes end up read and read rather than brainstorming what do i need to do to building my brand. But here’s what i learned and still need to learn.
Although i’m a graphic designer, i can’t draw. Yes, you can laugh now. I can draw you a car, a fish, a house, a sun, a mountain like kid’s doodle but i can’t draw you a nice human face (not the doodle kind one). And i really want to share my sketches on my blog, so i had pinned so many fashion illustrations or sketches about human faces, shadings, etc on pinterest and i learning and practicing how to draw. For now, i’m still copying models on fashion, but i guess it’s just a way to let my imagination grow for this. Deep down, i know that i don’t need to be perfect on drawing.. but it’s just nice to see a proportional human faces.
The second was i can practice on my photography. Photography is my hobby and i still carry my camera around when i’m traveling. When you sell something, you need a good presentation. You need to put props with it, position it, how do you want people to see it, how you style it (especially for what i sell). It should be a good enough presentation. Sometimes it still blew my mind how people style everything on instagram. Although they don’t sell anything, they still put a really BIG effort so that everything look nice. I still can’t believe it if they do it almost everyday. Like, do you live next to a department store and borrow everything for there? Or do you really have a long spare time for you to do that? I realize that having a full time job, a freelance job and Handmade Heirloom is a hard work plus my bad time management (of sleep :p).
The third one is that i’m learning about marketing. And yes, i have ZERO knowledge about it. For my freelance job, i’m working for my bff’s brother/client. Come to think of it, i work for that family. Every design related need to be done, they will come to me. It is nice and such a blessing to have them as a client and a friend. I have a few other clients but their project has come and go. sometimes just one project and then done. But for Handmade Heirloom, i’m trying to sell on online shop, so every social media that i have, my mind is just come to those 4 words, SELL. I sell it on instragram, facebook, pinterest and my blog on tumblr. I put the picture, i put the materials and i put the price. I thought everybody is doing this. These past few days, i’ve been reading articles that i come across or that i searched on google purposely about marketing and i come to understand that what i did was wrong. I base my online shop on facebook. I shouldn’t try to sell anything on instagram, tumblr and on pinterest. it’s like i’m desperate to sell something rather than just sharing. So, i’m gonna change my marketing strategy and see it from there.
I need to read and brainstorm a lot. And this is what i do when i’m laying on my bed at night. I’m trying to watch TV just to ease my brain, ended up i’m watching AND reading.
This is suppose to be a fun, hobby thing. But when you try to build a brand and try for people to buy it from you, you need extra effort to convince people to earn their trust. And that’s what i work on. It’s a lot of hard work. I hope it’ll pay off one day.
No, this is not because of Halloween (I just use a cute picture, rather a scary tomb stone). But anyway, the topic for this blog is death.
From the early 2014 until today, i experienced sudden deaths. On July, one of the uncle from my church passed away. He was ill but then recover quiet well. When he was on his bad condition, and we thought that maybe it’s ‘the time’, he survived. His death, might not be shocking but it was too soon. Later, after one week, I received a whatsapp message that, one uncle, my dad’s choir friend, was in the emergency. He can’t breathe, got chest pain and we were told to pray for him. 1 hour later, he was gone. It was a shocked. I just went to Singapore with him on October 2013 and he was fine. When i hugged his wife, she told me that, that was the last time we were having a holiday with him. Her body was weak. I feel that i more towards holding her so she’s not falling and i was really scared that she will passed out. Another one was also my dad’s friend whom i met when i came to my uncle’s house. He was from the singing group. He suffered from diabetes and he also had a heart condition. He also got a stroke. Within 15 minutes, he was gone. The scary part was, they were all in their 50s. Although they are not young anymore, but it’s not that old.
This month, i went to 2 funeral homes (supposedly 3, but one funeral over lap with the other). First was my aunt sudden stroke which led her to coma and passed away the following morning. We never heard that she’s sick or has any illness. But that morning, reading that she got a stroke. We were thinking that, maybe it’s a mild stroke. After asking my cousin who work for her, she was in the night before in a coma and went in straight to ICU. If there’s no progress the following day, the doctor will pronounce her dead because the veins were already not in its place and basically she’s brain dead. We were all still waiting for a miracle. She passed away the following day, 10 minutes before i got there. The thing was, i got close to my aunt months before she passed away. We shared things, mainly about work and joke around because she’s a funny person. Her posting on facebook tell us funny stories but yet a reflection of life. Her husband said that lately she liked to take pictures, write, posting some quotes, etc.
The second was my friends’ baby boy who passed away the next 2 days after my aunt. Their baby was too long on the wife’s tummy after a 9th opening (took 24 hours). They were preparing to have a normal delivery but doctor said she needs to undergo caesarian. So, the doctor’s prediction was that the baby died because of bacteria and his heart condition is not well.
The third one is today. My god-brother bbmed me this afternoon, asking to pray for his uncle’s soul. I was so confused yet shocked. Well, it means that he died right? My god-mother told me long time ago that her younger brother went missing and then after a few days, he went back to his house. He got dementia and depression. His wife and kids wont allow him out and go alone. Last friday, he went out and nobody knew. After 24 hours, the family went to the police to report a missing person. My god mother and god brother also looking for him and put a missing person flyer in the area where he live. Then his son got a called and was told that the caller saw his father. His son in law checked to the local hospital and showed 3 bodies. They were not him. This morning they found out that he died because of an accident and was placed in another room at that local hospital. He was died on that friday.
It really got me thinking on how we will leave this earth. Will we suffer from pain and die? will we die peacefully without any pain. Will we die alone or will we die surrounded by people who love us? Have we achieve everything that we want to achieve in this life or at least try to do what we always scared to do? What will you do if you know you’re going to die tomorrow?